finding one man among so many

finding one man among so many, originally uploaded by MadSunCaribou.

pinehurst

pinehurst, originally uploaded by MadSunCaribou.

well we made it to london. sister's house is just beautiful makes me feel like a miserable failure but then that's how it's gonna be from now on. i'm the black sheep of the family now and it sucks. i wish my life was half as good as my sisters. my life used to be and i appreciated it everyday yet that wasn't enough for it to be taken away from me. i've got to get a better attitude about this or my 2 weeks here will be miserable.

little pebbles

little pebbles, originally uploaded by MadSunCaribou.

i'm stressing out so much lately and i don't know how to stop. i'm stressing about going to london, i'm stressing about work, personal issues. it's coming from everywhere. all i can do is one day at a time.

i was thinking about it

i was thinking about it, originally uploaded by MadSunCaribou.

i have a love hate relationship with cigarettes. i hate smoking, i hate smoke but sometimes i really love to smoke a cigarette. i am going to attempt to quit yet again.

i'm kind of a writer

i'm kind of a writer, originally uploaded by MadSunCaribou.

this journey is almost over i hope. it began so long ago and i can't believe an end is possibly near. if you read this blog please send good wishes my way for tomorrow. (monday) i need all the good vibes i can get! and thank you!

the fan

the fan, originally uploaded by MadSunCaribou.

i love the deamy quality of this image. not sure exactly what it is? i'm not exactly sure myself!

love modeling

love modeling, originally uploaded by MadSunCaribou.

been uninspired with ttv lately. i wish i could shake it. it was about this far in last year with the ttv 365 project that i ran out of steam. but i'm sticking to it dammit!